How do you do, 2012?

They say 2012 is the year of water dragon. Because 2012 is related to ‘water’, people will act more stable and ‘cooler’ this year.

It’s not that I believe in this ‘primbon’. but, I, myself, really need to act calmer, to behave the way I should behave. I realize that I’ve been such a terrible person with unstable emotion recently. I have the reason to act like that. I know. Sometimes you have your reason to get angry, your ticket to be hypersensitive and explosive, yet you just can’t do anything about it.

Before, if I were in that situation, have ‘ticket’ to get upset about anything around you but can’t do anything, I will look for the ‘kambing hitam’, then that person, I will make him/her suffers (well, not really that sadistic). The most terrible thing that I can do to the person is ignoring him/her, like he/she is not even exist. I swear I didn’t do anything, it’s only them. They are nice enough to not socialize anymore with me and my friend.

Now you know, I got 2 problems here:

1. I get angry easily

2. I am a psycho

In the time like this, I think I should start doing my ‘self-actualization’. Be wiser and mature is all I need. Indeed. I try to identify what I need to do.

1. Never expect! (Gosh, it’s so damn right!)

2. Never think too much about something: about how people think of your personality, about other people business (it’s hard to do!).

3. Do what you want other people do to you. If in the end, they won’t do what you do to them and you hope they to do it back to you, see #1 – never expect

I wish I can do all of those things

It’s funny for me how I react and behave recently, I think I am calmer :p

I just react normally for some surprising news. I don’t feel like blackmailing people. Don’t feel like hating people who have done ‘bad thing’ to me. I don’t know exactly why, I just think that it’s because it’s wasting my time and energy as I laugh at my mistake and I don’t care what they are doing.

No, I am not joking -_-

Wish me luck!

For the better me

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